I am bored I am bored, bored, bored let me say it again. Freedom, freedom please, please what do I have to do to get some privacy. It’s really amazing. It’s so unfair that the Internet works in nick’s room, but not mine really truly unfair. I’m angry but I’m still channeling sadness, grief, despair, and pain. I think I’m channeling the whole world’s misery. It’s starting to become a pain I don’t know what I’m going to do if I keep channeling. seriously. It’s playing havoc with my emotions and wellbeing. I don’t want to be a vessel for other’s misery and depression. Who’s sadness am I channeling anyway, where is it coming from? I need to find out because I need to find a way to effectively block it out. I don’t mind sometimes, it’s good for writing, but not all the time. I think maybe I invited it in, but now I can’t get it to leave and I can’t control it. Maybe I just have suppressed emotions and this is my sub-conscience’s way of alleviating all my pent up emotions using particularly strong, virulent ones to get my attention. Also choices I would prefer more in my nature than giddiness. Still, any overload of emotion is taxing and draining. Again I ask you where is it coming from???!!!!